Months of slacking and waiting and finally....tada! My blog! All the delays are only understandable for a procrastinator like me. Better late than never right? :)
Anyways, don't expect this entry to be a long one since it's been awhile since I last blog hence the fading skills. Besides, it's kinda late now so I'll head to bed in awhile more. Think I'll just crap something up like what I've been up to today.
So, I woke up at 1:30 in the afternoon and reheated the soup from yesterday's leftover. It tasted nice despite not having any meat or vege left and even better with Chipsmore and Kettle's salt and vinegar potato chips (Lays out of stock otherwise I bet it would taste heavenly). What a great combination! Or maybe I was just hungry... No, truth is, I hardly feel hungry although you might see me pigging out most of the time. I don't know why, all I know is that the more I resist them, the more I crave for them.
Ugh..
Sleepy. Emo. *yawn* Nite all :)
Honestly, I hate having to decline foods that are being offered to me.Rude? but I does that all the time. And I hate it more when people eat without asking if I would like to share. Regardless, it wouldn't kill to ask would it? Just to show some sense of respect. So yeah, I am insane. No offense,
cuz as much as I heart tasting, I hate growing fat(
ter) than I already am. If it was 2yrs ago, I would say "bring them on!" or even snatch the food from your plate
cuz fat was the last thing that I need to worry about then.Seriously,I could eat all day long and my normal meal would include
breakie,lunch,dinner and supper. Oh, with snacking in between each hour. Talk about justice! I irk the sight of watching
stickthin bitches who pig so much foods that can last me for 3 days and then! say " I STILL NOT FULL
LEH" or "I CANNOT GROW FAT LA" follow by a sigh *stone* I mean
wtf.
Talk about justice!
XD Ugh.
I remember when I was still a skinny bitch, I always wonder why do fat people can't stop eating knowing that they are already overweight. Now that I'm fat I can stop wondering no more
wtf. Fact is, NOBODY LIKES TO BE FAT (shut up skinny bitches) Stop judging and criticizing fat people when you see them eating
cuz every normal human being needs to eat. Unless you are a colliding meteor
cuz you're gonna die anyway. Undeniably, there IS really some fat
obese arse out there who continuously screw their already screwed diet when they pig
unnecessarily. These people, me no comment. You can comment. But for the other innocent half (like me?) being fat does not mean that we have to stop eating altogether!
As usual, I'm on diet. A diet which has lasted for more than 2yrs now which have not bear its fruit yet ( I doubt if it will). Once, I wanted to shake the fats off so desperately that I fasted for 4days. Well, not exactly fasting since I consumed liquids but it was totally a
foodless one. On the fourth day itself, I did (obviously!) lose some approximately 2-3
kgs and I was so thrilled. But everything came with a price to pay, I was already too weak by then that I can barely utter a clear single word. I was almost whispering! And not forgetting the weak knees and dizziness that tag along. Despite the disadvantages, I am satisfied with the results
achieved. which sadly does not last long
wtf. The moment I started eating again (not
binge!) I gain back all the weight faster than I could remember. Only then did I realised that it was water weight that I had shed. Water weight lost was actually bad, not only that it don't last, it dehydrates you. You are actually draining away the liquid in your body.
Then there was another time when I heed my friend's advice and resorted into taking
laxatives. You see, this friend of mine, she has always been the chubby and muscular one (due to her participating in sports)back in high school time. Then, 3yrs later, I bumped into her again. Holy cow Mother Theresa, she's become so slim and man, can I say
hawwt! Again, I was tempted! and desperate -_- So I started taking them and for god's sake, it was horrendous. I experienced major cramps and the lavatory has somewhat become my new bedroom, except that I don't sleep in it although I almost did a few times
LOL Not to mention the inconvenience that it caused you when you would rather stay home than going out afraid that you would stain your lovely pink lacy
pantie with
Hershey's dark chocolate syrup, only this was more diluted :D
Anyways, I stop taking them altogether when I finally fainted twice in a day. Once in the toilet (I was smart enough to flush as soon as I feel dizzy :) and the second was when I was walking back toward my room after fainted in the toilet
wtf. The first time was better tho,
cuz I only hit my bottom and got bruised. Next one was nasty, since I got so lucky to landed on the rough tiles instead of the polished one
wtf, and come face down first, I cut my jaw and knee =.= Actually, I didn't realised that my jaw was cut until I felt a sudden sharp pain and saw blood dripping on the tiles. I panicked but couldn't gather the
slightest strength to pull myself together and my maid was deaf (kidding, she couldn't hear despite me yelling (
altho it sounded more like whispering) twice) In the end, I was left with a bruised backside, a cut knee, more bruises and a scar below my jaw. The scar remains until today *sniffs*
Clearly, laxative or dieting is just not for me because I have a record of low blood pressure with occasional gastric squeeze and a few more sickness to name
wtf. Most importantly, I think my metabolism is fucked up. Cannot
absorb and digest properly. Or maybe the worms in my stomach is anorexic? If they are, I bet they are skinnier than Nicole Richie. Even now that Nicole has given birth and gaining some weight which is good for her, she is looking
hawt than ever.
Stoopid,retarded,anorexic worms.
Therefore, I am trying to practise a healthy diet which consist of more veges and less red meat (I know, it was dreadful) Alternatively, I will trade red meat for lean meat because I read from somewhere that it is less fattening. Other than that, I force myself to consume as much water as I could to flush the toxic out and keeps myself hydrated. So far, I have yet to see any changes in my weight yet and it was disappointing
wtf :( But I guess maintaining it would be far better than gaining eh?
Yeap, that's the only reason why I am still sticking to this lame stupid diet!
Me scared
fat -_-"Oops! 4:30 already. Me go prepare for dinner :)
