.: My last wish

OMG I THINK I HAVE EITHER BEEN CURSE OR I'M GONNA DIE SOON.

I'm having a serious hair loss problem ( I lose approximately 100-200 strands of hair daily), my scalp is itchy as hell that it's really excruciating and anti-itch shampoo just isn't working!!!!!

48 strands in 10minutes??! 20mins=96 , 30=144 , 40= ...... *turns hysterical*

I think the itch is probably caused by my long nails since I love stroking my hair alot so the kuman-kuman tersepit between my nails could have been indirectly transferred to my scalp hence the itchiness! Sounds logical? or not? Then what am I supposed to do with it? Cut it??

Cut my super chio long nails??? (as you can see, nails like mine that can still look as chio without over-exaggerating manicure with fake studded diamonds and flowers IS ABSOFUCKINGLUTELY RARE )

Cutting it short would mean the end of my nails fabulosity reign and I will not allow that to happen! Not even if it means that I will die getting serious infection from it!

The most I will do is to turn into a hygiene freak and wash my hand more often and wears glove 24/7. But then cannot flaunt my nails jor lor?? -_-

Other than that, I'm also experiencing a scary weight gain where I easily gained 1kg per day IF I consume more than ONE BLOODY MEAL throughout the whole day and sometimes, after my breakie, I would find myself 2kgs lighter in the afternoon compared to the morning which is ABNORMAL AND IT'S REALLY FREAKING ME OUT okay!!

That's not all, to add insult to injury, I've been developing insomnia and whatever methods that I've tried to coaxed/force myself into sleeping will fail with flying colors wtf.

WORST OF ALL is that my boobs are getting BIGGER ~~they makes me look like a blardy 2nd class porn star and I hate Pamela Anderson~~ which I presumed as bloatedness cuz it hurts when I accidentally ter-touched them! Heck, they even hurt when I shower or when I'M REMOVING MY BRA WTFNIAMAKNNBCCB~

CAN SOMEBODY TELL ME WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME AND WHY AM I SUFFERING FROM BLOATEDNESS WHEN MY PERIOD IS STILL TWO WEEKS AWAY????? THIS IS FREAKING ABNORMAL~

WHY????!!

MOMMY HELP ME AAAAAAAHHH~

If I ever die before any of you please don't be sad because I think I'll be happier that way eventhough I've never thought of committing suicide to end my fucked up life because I've always believe that no one has the right to end my fucked up life except for mommy, daddy or God. To mommy, remember to drink less coffee, eat less oily foods and watch less Hong Kong dramas because they sucks. Switch to Prison Break or Gossip Girl instead (I doubt if you'll like the latter but trust me, IT'S NICE) and don't worry cuz I will remind S to supply them to you every month FOC and if he dare to forget I will haunt him when he's sleeping, eating, walking, talking and even shitting.

As for daddy, ask him to buy less MKT (can buy but don't bet too big because "got buy got chance, no buy langsung no chance) , smoke less (don't quit because quitting is fatal and we all know that. Just look at porpor! I wish she had never quit :(

Surround Princess A with people who love her and spoilt her with choice (don't start telling me that spoiling is wrong because I don't care since I'm gonna die soon) Let me know if anyone mistreated her so that I can come back, dress haggardly, and starts crawling with my twisted neck accompanied with the "klak klak" sound right in front of these scumbags.

Also, plan more get-together dinner since I won't be able to do so anymore and if Bryan dare to give excuses for not going don't worry, I will haunt and scratch his piano. Encourage Zac to work harder and spend wisely = LESS CLUBBING = SAVE MONEY ON LIQUOR. Lastly, I hope Manda will control her temper and stop being such a brat because she's no longer a baby and SHE'S EFFING 18TH ALREADY GODDAMMIT! She can also have all my clothes AFTER I'm gone altho I doubt if they will fit her perfectly since ~~I'm so fat~~ she's too thin.

I SHALL BE WATCHING OVER EACH AND EVERYONE OF YOU :'(

I promise that I will go for a medical check up this week to see how many days/months are there left for me to live and I hope that on the day I die, I will still look pretty with my hair and blossomed boobs attached ( since I won't be feeling the pain of bloatedness anymore and my agonizing days are finally over)

And to S, I will regret and feel terribly sorry if I missed the chance of becoming your wife and the mother to your kids and the grandmother to your kids kids and your kids kids kids greatgrandmother.

However, mourn my death for as long as possible and stay celibate for at least 3months from the day I die and IF you really have to move on ( of course I hope you'll move on :), NEVER, ever take back your that SLUTTY, UNGRATEFUL , BITCHY WITH LOTS OF ALGAE GROWING AROUND HER CHEEBUY EX-GIRLFRIEND because I'd rather you date my sister. ~~UNDERSTAND??~~ Promise? :)